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The Wild Child Strikes Again - 2024: The Year of Being NOTHING

At least for now…

After reflecting on last year, the most challenging and rewarding year of my life, looking through my calendar month by month, the amount of energy I expended on everything going on in my life was astronomical. The thought, ”Holy Shit, how the hell did I do that?” ran through my brain. It was 100% non-stop and OVER THE TOP…it made me tired just looking at it. 

And after 49 years of always having to be “something” whether it was a daughter, a sister, a student, an athlete, a swimmer, an Air Force cadet, an officer in the Armed Forces, a swim coach, a wife, a mother, a business owner and entrepreneur, a boss, a “newly proclaimed healer” (even if it still feels weird)…it was always something. 

Always having to prove myself to who??? Society??? My Parents?? Myself???  That I’m something, I’m worthy, I have value because I’m “DO”ing and have a label?

My Wild Child has had enough of that shit.  She wants to shake it all off, shake off the attachments and responsibilities of all of it…relax and curl up in the silence and safety of a womb-like darkness and at the same time bask in light and freedom of being NOTHING!! 

She wants to remember what it was like to run free without caring who she was, what she had to do, or what responsibilities she had.  She could roam, explore, sing, and dance (naked if she wanted) and not care what anyone else thought.  

(SIDE BAR: I did run around my neighborhood in my Wonder Woman Underoos when I was 6…and thought I was a rockstar until my friend’s parents pointed out I was wearing underwear. It did deflate me a bit having to put clothes back on, but secretly I still felt like a rockstar). 😉

She could run around with a “rat’s nest” on the back of her head and smudges of dirt on her face and NOT CARE. She could go make friends with whomever she liked. She didn’t care what happened next.  Only that she was 100% enjoying the moment she was in.  She didn’t have the “weight of the world” on her shoulders. She had no attachments. 

And to be honest…when I first realized I wanted to do this, the thought was so exhilarating and terrifying at the same time.   I came down and talked to my husband with tears streaming down my face.  

Because the idea of “being” nothing, after all the effort I had put in and all the money I had spent in remembering the “real” me and how much I wanted to help make the world a better place, seemed like I was giving up.  

AND at the same time, there was such a longing for quiet, solitude, and rest. Of doing nothing…being without obligations or commitments. Only doing the things I really wanted to do when “I” wanted to do them.

So with that, I sit…in reflection.  

As I was driving yesterday, my journey statement from my Shamanic Energy Medicine training in Chile popped into my head:


It’s like I’m going backward and starting over…OR…I’m at the beginning…starting from the seed in the dark earth…NOTHING at least as far as people can see. 

As I grow into this Wild Child with “fresh” eyes and perspectives as well as the wisdom of 49 years on earth, I get to see what “Enough” is from being NOTHING. I get to start all over.

And the journey begins…

A Fellow Wild Child Journeying for Answers 😘


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